Becoming Independent

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I’ve started my own company and it’s been up for over a year now.  It’s my company on writing – based on advice from an accountant at Writers Digest – and now I am the sole owner of an LLC business.  I recently left my full time job and that has become a bit of a challenge in a good way.  I am now challenged daily to have a work schedule that will focus ONLY on my work, my business, and making it grow.  I have a fund to work with – savings, really – and I have signed up with a shared office space within which to do the mundane things of putting up my laptop and writing in relative peace.  I can’t always write at home, especially with cats jumping on my desk and wanting a pet, or with my dog snoozing at my feet and getting all antsy once I am astir, to beg for treats at each moment that I’m not stuck at my home desk.

I don’t really miss the work meme – that sort of atmosphere of being amongst people in a company – not yet, anyway.  A friend of mine who worked for a company as a remote employee told me that she missed her cube mates.  But I’m not that sort of person even at work where I liked to chat with cube mates and meet at the kitchen to pour out coffee and comment on the day’s activities.  In my more mature years, that loner label has been cast at my direction more than once.  I accept that, and yet to some, the loner label is anathema.  Why is that?  I don’t know.  I like the idea of going at things alone, yet there is always that Higher Power that moves me and so I really am not alone.  Perhaps, in the work mode, team playing is big and that is what people are comfortable with.  Being a loner at a corporate level is not good, if I read these corporate types right. I can see why, they all need your input, they need your gut feelings on decisions and so on.  I seem to digress but perhaps this is part of the reason why I am going on my own.  I don’t want to have to work for somebody on projects that no longer appeal.

My work then is my writing.  The stuff that my dreams are based on.  I can be sure that if I spend time struggling with a document’s formatting (which I did yesterday with rather desperate results!), I can say that I am working on my stuff so I don’t consider it a waste of ‘company’ time.  I find it hard to think of some (digressing here) documents that are templates really, and make them into what I want them to be.  I think that the time to self-teach (go to and take some short courses on say, Microsoft Word?, lol) is here.  But, I would rather spend all my time learning how to create document templates (stationery, e.g.) than having to create hyperlinks to documents that go to an internal database that would never really be helpful to anyone but the person working on the document.  This sort of thing actually happened at my former workplace.  Imagine hyperlinking almost every word or term in documents for a stretch of days at a time?  No it was time to quit. LOL.

I am grateful for the independence from a job that has become onerous.  I may one day work part time to supplement my business, but that might not ever come because, hey, maybe God will send me a publishing contract (smile).  However it may be in my future, I think I’ll be ok.  I think that despite the risks involved in putting up my shingle at my age, I think I will be ok.  I give all to My God, and to His direction.  That is what keeps me from going into a stark reality that seems to cloud minds and reduce the creativity in this world.

I would suggest those who wish to strike out on their own to do it soon, but to find their passion first. And, more importantly, to ASK GOD for Guidance and Patience.  Things will one day be ok.  But the good part is that getting there will be filled with many moments of fun and good feelings. Imagine yourself in your own place, in your own office, having a cup of tea or coffee, wandering into the kitchen and finding snacks, petting the dog, and then going back to work. I think that’s an ideal life. And an ideal workplace.

The Lie

Sacred Heart of Jesus Picture

I am going to go out on a limb and say that the Evil Satan is the Leader of this world.  He is the Father of Lies.  Lie No. 1 – You have to be rich to be happy.  Lie No. 2 – You have to move up in the world to be successful and happy.  Lie No. 3 – You need to be pretty and smart to be happy and successful.  Lie No. 4 – The world is the only place that matters.  Lie No. 5 – The happiness you seek is in drugs, food and sex.

I am sure that I will be pilloried by those who follow these lies and believe in them.  That is not going to stop me at all. There are millions of people in the world who are happy without these things – the trappings of success.  Lies are so rampant that people make concrete structures from them. A building can be a tissue of lies, wrapped with words, documents, products, and profit margins.  It is a lie to think that a company is successful because it has a good profit.

Do you believe everything that is seen by the stock market?  Is the stock market a lie in itself?  Why do people invest in it?  It is a lie too.

We are all sitting on unsteady ground.  None of us are really secure. The Father of Lies webs us all up in his magic and makes us believe he is real and will give you all you need.  This is what WE are up against.  Those who manufacture lies and follow the Evil One are destined to be like the weeds that are burned after a harvest.

Those who feel that they are given a God-given talent and want to pursue success must listen avidly to God’s prodding and making them depend upon His Divine Providence.  This is what God wants from the world.  It is not enough to feel that God is present when you go to daily Communion.  It is more important to feel that God is listening to you and you askHim for guidance.  It is always good to question the thoughts that come to you and make you want something or someone.  Always ask God what to do.  He will answer.

On the Subject of Nurturing

Father God

What about nurture?

Coming to my mind – in Oxford University (UK), they have a practice or tradition of students being in meetings with their professors – a one to one kind of meeting to discuss and improve their work, and to write essays and papers. This appealed to me because I believed this was the right way to become educated. I love the idea of Oxford and being a student there.

In my life, nurturing is a big deal – my parents nurtured me, mostly my Mom who was my guide and mentor in all things. My father stood as the disciplinarian, the one who told me once to quit smoking and was the Voice of Authority.

As an only child, I wanted and sought out nurturers in my life. There were few. Besides my Mom, these may have been friends and teachers and in my graduate life, that was my PhD major professor. He wasn’t too nurturing as he was busy. But, he made sure that I was ‘protected’ from those who would wish to tear my project apart. He came to all my presentations, and then asked me what my wish would be – do I want to become an MD or a PhD? Or did I want to major in Biochem or in Pharmacology. These are not at all out of the ordinary for a major professor to do, but that was something I appreciated.  And it was nurturing. And, he enjoyed eating the Asian food I brought to work when we celebrated birthdays and achievements.

Nurturing children to become good students is a key thing. Nurturing students to succeed in their chosen field of study is most important. The trajectory of nurturing is in direct opposition to the progress of an individual’s growth, I fear. I fear that there are no older guides who are there to see to it that a growing or young adult is on the right path to becoming the best they can be. In terms of work, the ones who appear to be nurturers besides the management and higher levels of the company would be the human resources director and her staff. I know from experience that she would be checking to make sure everything was where and how they ought to be. That they are happy, content, filled with new projects etc.

But it isn’t really enough, though is it? To my mind, nurturing is mainly relegated to babies and nurseries. When the babies have been let out of school in the 7th grade, they are almost done with nurturing them. In church, nurturing is good as well, and this activity can be in the care of children while the parents are being given religious ‘food’ but the best part is when the children go to Sunday School. The nurturing there happens only on Sundays, and then the rest of the child’s life is taken to the four winds the rest of the week.

What I’m trying to say in so many words, though, is that we ALL NEED CONSTANT NURTURING. Self-love, maybe so – and that is the topic of another blog post (see MarianMusings.com). But, I mean – that love of a better and older, wiser person – those would be our parents. It behooves us Parents to nurture our children NO MATTER how old they are. To those who have no parents remaining, there are the aunts and great aunts, the grandparents and godparents. In the tradition of baptism, the godparents are given the task of taking over the raising of children of the family if both parents were to die suddenly before the children are of adult age.

Seek out the nurturers in your world. If you see the sign at the office “Your Mother DOES NOT WORK HERE” that only means you need to bus your tables and clean up after you have had your morning coffee. But it seems to hint at the fact that one cannot expect a “mother” or “nurturer” in that office.

It seems to me that the workplace is where nurturers are lacking. I don’t see supervisors being nurturers where I have worked. It seems that all work is geared towards the production of something. Not of someone. I suppose you can’t really expect a company to turn out better employees. Yet, isn’t that something that one could expect? Why not? If one were to go to another company and tell them they worked for A and company B is thinking “I’ve seen A employees and boy, they are great!” Is not that a good sign that A company was somehow nurturing? I don’t mean diaper changes and timely readings of bedtime stories. NO, I mean, that the company needs to improve the education of their employees in a nurturing way.

if a company fails an employee, that is deserves thirty lashes of a leather splint across the back. Well, I’m being facetious. But if an employee is someone who has had many good things to say and many good projects that they’ve done, and that company has marginalized that employee without much ado, then I’d say the company is comatose and is on life support.

Of course, nurturing an employee can be dangerous, can’t it? There are those who don’t think their coworkers should be nurtured. Why that person and not me? Then if that happens, nurturing must be equitable. But there are elements of fairness that aren’t present in many companies. It is then that an employee needs to decide whether he or she is in need of nurturing elsewhere. Or, if one can’t move or is somehow beholden to that company, then the nurturing must definitely come from “extra-terrestrial” sources.

I’m finding that this is how everyone must seek their Nurturers. I am suggesting that one seek Sunday school all over again. Sundays for nurturing the individual is perfect. One goes to have church services, and then maybe a hearty lunch, and then a little nap and then settle down to read, or write about how things could be improved in one’s life. Taking the ideas of what was discussed at church service and putting those against what one is going through in life. I’m suggesting a prescription of nurturing – asking a Higher Being to be part of one’s life and becoming THE ONLY and ONE NURTURER. It’s simple enough. Father God, you would begin, help me here because I need nurturing.