Becoming Independent

Independence image

I’ve started my own company and it’s been up for over a year now.  It’s my company on writing – based on advice from an accountant at Writers Digest – and now I am the sole owner of an LLC business.  I recently left my full time job and that has become a bit of a challenge in a good way.  I am now challenged daily to have a work schedule that will focus ONLY on my work, my business, and making it grow.  I have a fund to work with – savings, really – and I have signed up with a shared office space within which to do the mundane things of putting up my laptop and writing in relative peace.  I can’t always write at home, especially with cats jumping on my desk and wanting a pet, or with my dog snoozing at my feet and getting all antsy once I am astir, to beg for treats at each moment that I’m not stuck at my home desk.

I don’t really miss the work meme – that sort of atmosphere of being amongst people in a company – not yet, anyway.  A friend of mine who worked for a company as a remote employee told me that she missed her cube mates.  But I’m not that sort of person even at work where I liked to chat with cube mates and meet at the kitchen to pour out coffee and comment on the day’s activities.  In my more mature years, that loner label has been cast at my direction more than once.  I accept that, and yet to some, the loner label is anathema.  Why is that?  I don’t know.  I like the idea of going at things alone, yet there is always that Higher Power that moves me and so I really am not alone.  Perhaps, in the work mode, team playing is big and that is what people are comfortable with.  Being a loner at a corporate level is not good, if I read these corporate types right. I can see why, they all need your input, they need your gut feelings on decisions and so on.  I seem to digress but perhaps this is part of the reason why I am going on my own.  I don’t want to have to work for somebody on projects that no longer appeal.

My work then is my writing.  The stuff that my dreams are based on.  I can be sure that if I spend time struggling with a document’s formatting (which I did yesterday with rather desperate results!), I can say that I am working on my stuff so I don’t consider it a waste of ‘company’ time.  I find it hard to think of some (digressing here) documents that are templates really, and make them into what I want them to be.  I think that the time to self-teach (go to and take some short courses on say, Microsoft Word?, lol) is here.  But, I would rather spend all my time learning how to create document templates (stationery, e.g.) than having to create hyperlinks to documents that go to an internal database that would never really be helpful to anyone but the person working on the document.  This sort of thing actually happened at my former workplace.  Imagine hyperlinking almost every word or term in documents for a stretch of days at a time?  No it was time to quit. LOL.

I am grateful for the independence from a job that has become onerous.  I may one day work part time to supplement my business, but that might not ever come because, hey, maybe God will send me a publishing contract (smile).  However it may be in my future, I think I’ll be ok.  I think that despite the risks involved in putting up my shingle at my age, I think I will be ok.  I give all to My God, and to His direction.  That is what keeps me from going into a stark reality that seems to cloud minds and reduce the creativity in this world.

I would suggest those who wish to strike out on their own to do it soon, but to find their passion first. And, more importantly, to ASK GOD for Guidance and Patience.  Things will one day be ok.  But the good part is that getting there will be filled with many moments of fun and good feelings. Imagine yourself in your own place, in your own office, having a cup of tea or coffee, wandering into the kitchen and finding snacks, petting the dog, and then going back to work. I think that’s an ideal life. And an ideal workplace.

Life without school – while I was away

download

I haven’t gone to classes these last two months – partly due to scheduling conflicts, and partly because I’ll be away some parts of July.  So that scrunched all my classes down towards the last few months of the year.  No fear, however, since the last half of the year will be mostly about what I like to take – fiction writing.  I’m looking forward to that and also to a chance at learning something different – drawing.  I’ve been fascinated by Graphic Novels, and I’ve read several, many of them rather well done.  I am hoping to grow my drawing skills and this class is what I hope will do it.

I’ve drawn/sketched in my teenage years.  Now here’s a chance to get a better grasp of it.  I want to write something that just came to me in my mind a few months ago.  I can’t divulge it yet but it has something to do with an American hero (cut down in the prime of life) that comes back to life.  It’s kind of amorphous yet, the plot, but I do have something down.  The tentative title is:  The Last One.  I think it’s exciting and I hope that when I have it gotten down scene by scene, it will be as exciting to read and the main thing is to make sure that the artwork is as good.  There are artists out there that might be good to have to work on this and if anyone out there is good at graphic novel art, please send me or comment on this post.  I can be reached in my Twitter page (http://www.twitter.com/merryagnes) and also you can send me a note through this webpage.  I’m looking for someone that can do action scenes as well as static scenes.

Other news is that my novel Loveable Resident is churning along.  If you want to see some excerpts and, maybe donate funds, you can check my work at http://www.patreon.com/merryagnes.

Have a safe, enjoyable and wonderful 4th!

Back on Patreon

Good Saturday Morning Everyone!

I wanted to let you know that I have returned to Patreon.com to publish my works as part of my desire to fund my creative work outside of my current post.  I am hoping you all can visit and help support my work, particularly the novel Loveable Resident, which I would like to get final draft status soon.

I am also pleased to say that I’ve received a scholarship to attend a workshop in the East coast. It’s a small scholarship based on my submission (Loveable Resident), yet I feel as though it validates my creative work.

I will make a few more postings along the way and link to Patreon as well.

Enjoy the beautiful weekend!!! Mary

Merryagnes on Patreon.com

Thanksgiving aftermath

I hope everyone enjoyed their Thanksgiving vacation.  Some of you are still on their vacation.  I pray that traveling has been smooth and that the reunions have been fruitful.  News here is that my class in “Fiction” ended and a new class -Screenwriting – is started. My Fiction instructor wasn’t real bowled over the revisions I made to the Mike Oates character.  Seems that Mike is too “human” maybe, or needs to be schooled into the mold of being a “psychopath”.  My aim for this story is for the character Mike Oates to find or receive redemption.  However, it seems there are other heroes or anti-heroes that fit Mike Oate’s mold, like that Ripley character in Patricia Highsmith’s series about Tom Ripley.  So I’m feeling a bit at a loss how to portray Mike Oates now. Is it something that is a no go for pursuing this story? My classmates seemed to (most of them anyway) accept the character as they saw him.  Given that I only gave two chapters for them to critique, it makes me think that I ought to go forward with the story and see if anybody that will review it will accept what happens.

The other thing that I learned from my instructor is that characters “tell their story”.  We, as their creators, unfold them as we write about their story.  So, if that is true, going forward with Mike Oates’ story is the path to take.  I will accept some of the advice that my instructor provided and try this as an experiment.  That is, to go on with the way it is writing itself, and then if Mike Oates is truly unworthy of redemption, then so be it.  It’s very interesting how the concept of Characters write their way into your story.  Does anyone agree with this?  How did it go for you?  Did your audience accept them? Or is the audience some other entity that’s not as important to your oeuvre?

So I go forward and with some care move into getting this novel/book to its end.  There will be many revisions, of course, which are the pain of writing.  Have a blessed week!

Four Down

Breakneck speed – finished my class in Creative Fiction Seminar. Very nice experience working with about 26 students like me.  Our Professor was quite good and she had a lot of patience with us, guiding us and giving good advice as we went along.  I had a glitch last Friday where I needed to upload two documents and I uploaded one before realizing I needed the second one done and I had already exited the submission entry site.  Frantic calls to tech support garnered me the hope to email our professor and she was so good to help out.  I must say if she gave me a lower grade due to my dullwittedness, that is ok with me.  But I’m hoping she will continue to be happy with my work and she will award me a good grade.

I think out of it all, I learned to revise my story excerpt.  I think revisions are murderous on one’s creative ego, brought about by the constructive and some unconstructive critiques received.  However, my classmates have been overall glad to help and appreciated the story/plot.  Some wanted me to send it to Harlequin Romances.  Not sure about that yet.  I am reaching for the stars here, so not too eager to send to the least possible resistant literary agent.

I had to do some work on the main character.  Is he a pyschopath or someone who just had way too much stress and made the wrong move?  A fatal move? Or was it a fatality at all?  Interesting how sometimes a change to the dialogue can really make a difference in the overall effect of the story.  The loveable resident of my excerpt – he’s sort of a darling of mine – you know, you hate to kill them off, or blot them with inkstains.  I’m still rooting for him to get out of the hole I put him into.  Can an author do this?  How does one save the hero?

Happy Thanksgiving all.  I’m hunkering down to a Screenwriting class where I need to watch Thelma and Louise, read five chapters, send in three loglines and describe them all before Turkey dinner.  Good luck to me!  XOXO